You are My Sunshine

Greetings Beautiful Souls,

Lately I've been feeling disconnected from the flow of life, that everything seems to take an extra 9-10 steps to bring something into being or completion. It's feels tiring, exhausting actually. Then yesterday, I felt a shift, a simple moment that opened up inside like the glorious dawning of the sun. I felt the return of a profound sense of connection in my life that I've been missing. My hope is that this will let more light in for you too if you need it.

I've heard this week is astrologically significant for the year. Reports are saying it's important to lean into the things that bring you joy and happiness. Find your bliss and follow it. Put energy into the things and people that light you up. I feel like this whole past year I've been really trying to connect to what brings out my joy and how I access it. So, in true Michelle fashion, this week I've felt like I absolutely had to have the clarity I've been seeking, because it's time! I mean how long can some of these patterns linger right?! Which, in reality, has translated into me trying to make something happen that maybe wasn't ready to be fully seen, felt, or experienced. Until yesterday.

As usual I've rewritten this more times than I care to count, because being honest and vulnerable can be scary, even when it feels positive. What started out as a theme of being grateful for the people in my life turned into this beautiful unfolding and realization that I simply live in a blessing field each day. That I swim in miracles happening to me and around me, and I've been a bit oblivious to it at times. But not yesterday, and not today. Today I deeply feel the clarity, the joy, the depth and breadth of life as I believe it was meant to be experienced.

I realize that my joy comes up sometimes in the most ordinary of ways. Yesterday, the realization was Connection is what feeds it and allows it to thrive. Each day I get to wake up and come into work, I step into and am seeped in the glorious energy of each and every one of you. The joy comes in witnessing your hurts and pains. That sounds wrong in a lot of ways! Not in a "schadenfreude" kind of way (a German word meaning to derive pleasure from someone else's pain). But the fact that life can be difficult, and hard, and painful, and when we can be in that together it makes all the difference. The sense of "joy" I feel is this comforting, loving, gentle experience that I'm not alone, and I know you being here means you are not alone either, even though it may feel that way at times. It's not the joy of celebration and confetti. However, It makes space for that type of joy when the beautiful things in life show up, because we also share in those together, and that my friend is beyond joy, it is bliss to me. To see each and every one of you light up when the flowers are blooming in your life. When you share a beautiful moment about your family, When you celebrate a big step you've taken in life to change a pattern. When you share a moment that the pain simply stopped affecting your life like it had been.

Years of being in a space of service has taught me that the miracles of life are seldom the ones we desire for ourselves. We experience disappointment when we don't heal the things we want to heal in our own timeframe, when the bottom falls out of the things we think we need to move ahead. Something miraculous happens in life when we let go of the how it should look, or how it should happen. Suddenly we realize we are surrounded by people we care about and love. We are supported in relationships we would have never thought could be the foundational light in our day. We realize the grace, beauty, joy, and bliss that is right in front of our eyes that we have overlooked for years. If you haven't caught on by now, by "we" I mean me.

I'm feeling overwhelmingly grateful for each and every one of you.

You fill me with purpose, every time you share a story, a feeling, or moment of your life that allows me to connect more deeply with you!

You bring out my joy, especially when you share your wins, your fun experiences, your new beginnings!

You open my heart by simply coming through the door and gracing me with your presence! I mean it, it feels like I won the lottery when you come in.

You are infinitely amazing, and I'm so appreciative, grateful, and blessed that each and every one of you is in my life! Thank you all for this new orientation to life. For being the gift that is allowing me to experience my life more deeply, joyfully, presently, and fully. You are amazing!! Each of you are true medicine for the heart!

Warmly and with hugs,

Michelle